VOTE FOR MADINA LAKE! (BEST INTERNATIONAL ARTIST)

Anyone have any SFX hair dye??

I'm looking to dye my hair rainbow next week or so...but I need some Special Effects hair dye...there's no way I can buy 5 new bottles of it, so I'm looking for any extra/used bottles of Special Effects dye that you'd be willing to send me? lol

I need
red
orange
yellow
green
blue

and possibly pink and fishbowl...but mostly the colors above.

I'm going for this kinda look:





let me know! thank youuuuu

my sugar must be high cuz I'm getting emo. hahha I'm sure it is since I've eaten like almost a whole loaf of bread today. [damn you chocolate spread stuff!]


this past weekend has made me all emo about living in the middle of no where and having no friends to do stuff with.

-hanging out with Rachel was way awesome, and it was really the first time I'd been to Papa Roach shows with a fellow Papa Roach fan [kelly doesn't count. he likes them but he doesn't like rock out and stuff, you know what I mean.] it felt good. I liked going and getting food with her, and just walking around with her.

-seeing Madina Lake again after over a year was so good. I really do miss seeing them like 2-5 times a month like I used to back in the day.

-seeing Papa Roach is always good...something about these shows makes me feel closer with Jerry...we kinda talked a lot these shows, and when I started feeling weird during the show, and him worrying about me and asking if I was okay while he was playing..I dunno..kinda made me feel like our relationship has definitely moved up to actual friendship and stuff. maybe I'm strange. it's just cool to know that someone I care about a bunch is confirming to me that I'm more than just a fan to him. ionno. oh and I thought it was neat that Tony called me Busta, cuz for some reason, I don't really know why he would actually know that's my name hahah. and Tobin still talking about my pictures and stuff...lol. I guess I just didn't realize how much any of those guys actually know/think about me

-seeing Davey Sprockets is kinda hitting me the hardest. not sure why [lol don't take that the wrong way dave hahahha] I feel like we've gotten to be quite good friends over the last few months and we're like, being robbed of being able to see each other lolll. I think he and his music remind me a lot of like 2001, when I had a huge circle of friends that spent hours and hours together every day..the favorite time of my life. I really care about him and wish we could hang out more than we can.


I think people wonder why I'm constantly online..and texting, and IMing, and needing to have aim and internet and texting on my phone always...it's because I loveeee people. I love the people I love with all my heart and, because they live all over the damn world [thank you internet], it's all I have to keep my relationships with them. my best friends live in Ohio, Maryland, England, California, Illinois, New Jersey...none of which are near by. lol

I've lived in Bloomington for 2 years, and I have two friends outside of anyone I met working. I've never hung out with them outside saying hi when we've run into each other or come in while either of us are working. the only other people I know are coworkers or ex-coworkers..which is fine...but I only see them when I work really. none of our relationships are outside. most I've done with any of them was had a sandwich with Benjamin [who I haven't seen in forever] and walk around the mall a little with and get a ride up to Indy from Adam. I love Kelly, and I love being married and always having him to do stuff with, but it's just hard on me to not have any friends to hang out with. ugh..I could keep going, but I suppose I should shush now. lol.

okay..so today was stressful as hell!!

first, Paypal put a damn HOLD on my money from the dvd player! I cried!! lmao. so after a bunch of talking with my parents, my dad ended up sending me $50 to make up for the hold [so I'll send him back the held money when its released]
then, I get to the post office to send off the dvd player, and find out they don't HAVE small flat rate boxes....so I had to pay an extra like, $2.50 in shipping that I didn't charge the person for..
then, we go to eat and I chomp on my lip, and it hurts a bunch haha..by this time it's 8 o'clock, the mall closes at 9...and the rest of the money my mom sent for our anniversary hasn't cleared yet..we go to target to get Rhythm Heaven anyways and I just assume I'll have to go to gamestop tomorrow...but then I check paypal again, and there's the money!! yayyy...*does happy dance in target*
so then, we go to gamestop, they grab me a new red ds, trade in all my games and stuff, and it comes out to be like 90 something dollars??? and I'm like whoawhoa what? what happened to the 30% trade in bonus?? oh that ended yesterday. STORY OF MY LIFE. UGH...after all that...no new ds for me x] but luckily they had a used red one that's really only been played "2 or 3 times" and it looks pretty great. the top is flawless, and there's only a little wear on the screen otherwise it seems basically brand new. I'm glad I got that new stylus in the case I got, cuz the one it came with was all old and didn't stay in the ds. I think I'm going to name it Shelia, and I can't decide if I want to taint it yet with a Madina Lake robot sticker...it'll fit perfect if I do it though lol.
then my luck began to change!! we left gamestop with my new game in tow, and we're going to walk down to the puppy store, and what do I see on the ground? a $10 bill! woot! that makes up for the extra I had to pay in shipping, and helped with my agony hahaha.

so now everything is going good..I've got my game..my wisdom tooth is coming in all funky and decided to hurt today...HERE IT IS!


but anyways!! that was my crazy day! tomorrow, packing day...wednesday, finish packing and redye my hair. then HEAD ON OUT :DDDDD

well there went my respect.....
I'm obviously team JJT, but I've always kinda hung in there for Dave, understanding where he was coming from with the lawsuit...

I just talked to the guy the other day, he remembered who I was, he told me how he's expecting a baby...it was really nice....

but now I think all of that flew out the window and I just want to say what a big fat fucking douchenozzle he is now..

he posted this article http://www.dallasobserver.com/2009-05-07/music/elvis-perkins-comes-to-grips-with-his-past-and-himself/ citing that it's "the real deal about why i'm no longer in papa roach" and then continued to say this:



he's also said in the last few days "Qyestion: if yr 3 "best friends" kicked you while you were down, stabbed you in the back, then tried to rob you just to try and get ahead in business... What would you do? Answer: you stand up, handle your shit, move on, and let karma take care of the rest. That's what you should do."

okay...doesn't that 1. contradict itself, obviously Jacoby Jerry and Tony are moving on and being the bigger person, never trashed you anywhere, aren't talking about you, wishing you no ill will....well what are you doing? obviously you haven't moved on.
and 2. doesn't that completely alienate a bunch of people? I know it made me feel uncomfortable when I read it. what about Eddie and Greg? what about the Papa Roach fans who are still fans of yours that are following you...I'm guessing you probably just pissed them off too.

I'm just so thrown off....wtf?


[[EDIT::]] and then I wake up to him saying this:
I've said and done some pretty stupid shit in the past, I admit. I was also drunk and on drugs... I don't know what tobin's excuse is...
Alright, i've calmed down... Plus i don't need to WASTE my energy on idiots...


I'm still waiting for him to "stand up, handle your shit, move on, and let karma take care of the rest"

welcome backkkkkkk.....
after 4 months of being goneeeee.



and soon you will look like this!




I'm so relieved now.

sooooooo. my weekend. lol. [[Warning! Longest blog ever!]]

friday...driving down to Nashville, we hit some traffic through Louisville and we got scared we were gonna be late for checking into our hotel...but then when we got into Tennessee and Kelly noticed his phone was an hour different and we're like WHOOT Tennessee is on central time! so we gained an hour, and that gave us plenty of time. blah blah..checked into the hotel room..found the place Butch was playing at. we parked, went and got some Krispy Kremes cuz that was the only food around and we were dying. then, when we were in line, we noticed that Black Stone Cherry was playing on sunday, and we were like man, I bet Papa Roach is gonna come to that show [only to find out later that they did hahah...atleast Jacoby did. he tweeted about it.] Butch was great. too bad Ray couldn't come. lol. I guess he got some Marvelous 3 dvd or something, and Tobin told us that they had Butch Walker night on the bus the other day lol. Butch was great [duh.] popoff face from Lit [the one with the big head..jeremy] was there of course. he was smoking in the building and making me cough..you're not some big rockstar dude, you're not above the law, and it's not like if someone stops you, you'll just be like, dude..I'm in Lit, we had that one song 12 years ago. and they'll just be like ohhh, go ahead and smoke indoors man! right on! sorry, ain't gonna happen. we hung around afterward trying to say hi to Butch, but he sneakily ran off the bus after a bunch of people started standing around. so we left cuz we were pretty sure he ran off with Litface and jumped into his car and peaced out. so we go back to the hotel, and get some Jack in the Box since we've only had it once since moving from CA.

saturday...Kelly's birthday. I wake up with horrible stomach pains that I just figured was like gas from eating right before bed...but boy oh boy was I wrong. food poisoning. from jack in the box......again. yeah..I'm never eating there again. for those of you that don't know, I got food poisoning soooo hardcore from eating there in 2004 it was the most horrible thing ever. this time, it was more just annoying and gross feeling than horrible atleast...but it still kept me in bed all day. I felt like I ruined Kelly's actual birthday. he went out a few times to get food and get dinner by himself :(

sunday...I felt a bit better, but my stomach still was kinda cramped up from being sick all the day before. tried to eat some cinniminis..ehhh. we went around downtown Nashville, and explored a bit. we went into all the funny tourist shops. I got a squished penny :D as we were walking around, we ran into Jerry looking for the bus lol. we talked to him for a while about the record and his wife and daughter being out. and a little about Ashley haha. when we said bye, I was like ehh what..handshake?? I was all awkward for some reason lol so jerry goes for a handshake and like yanks me in for a hug. x] blah blah..we went to this cool mall across the street from the Grand Ole Opry, and checked out Rue 21 [the mall here in Bloomington is getting one so we wanted to see what it's like] it's super cool. Went to the Disney store and looked at all the cheap kids shirts hoping to find a Stitch one, which they never have. Kelly found one and it was 4$. amazing. it's orange too. so I got it, and it rang up 10$, and we're like uh no. that's 4$..and she's like no it's over there, and we said no there's a huge stack of them on the 4$ table. so she's like hmm okay..and she ends up taking 6$ off..so it ended up only being $3.50 and some tax [Tax, btw, in Tennessee is 9.25% and the prices for everything are outrageous...99 cents for a normal sized candy bar...plus tax. it was retarded] err..we had ihop...I think that was it haha. ohoh...and I was thinking about stretching my ears to my final 4's, but I couldn't really decide. I was doing a puzzle book, and two of the answers in one of the puzzles were "earlobe" and "plug" so I thought it was a sign! hahaha. so I did it. I think it was probably the easiest ones. my ears were kinda like phew! all done. so they didn't swell up or hurt too bad :]

monday...we went to LJS/A&W which was nice. I put in my pink zebra plugs. loveeeee them! we went to the mall near our hotel and it was ghetttoooooo. uhmm...then we went back downtown at about 2 or so. there were already a good handful of people in line, it was weird. we got a good parking spot [that was free! wahoo! haha] and so we just went walking around downtown again. we thought maybe PR would be at the Hard Rock Cafe lol, so we went in to have some ice cream [which was sooo good] they weren't in there but that was okay haha. after people started trickling into town, we started counting all of the A7x shirts vs Papa Roach shirts, and it was basically a bajillion to two...which was gay. lol. we sat around near will call for a while to waste some time. then we walked around the outside of the venue a few times haha..it was nice out. we got hungry so we went on a search for cheap food...we ended up eating at Sbarro which was yummy, and the cheapest we could find. on the way back, we saw Stevie D from buckcherry go into this guitar store, and told these people behind us [who were wearing buckcherry shirts lol]

by this time we went to will call to see if anything was up there yet, it was almost time for doors. nothing at the window yet, so we just waited around. two people from paparoach.com recognized me. one asked if we could get their cd signed for them, but I didn't even know what was going on yet, let alone how everything would work out, or how I would get the cd back to her...[if you're reading this I'm really sorry! lol] we talked to the other girl for a while. Katie came out and Kelly waved and was like HEY GUYS! the dude at the window got all confused and hassled her about giving them stuff for guestlist..we kinda laughed. Then Katie was all, hey you guys wanna come to the meet and greet? and we're like yeah sure. so we got kinda whisked away without even knowing what was going on [so I couldn't grab that cd for that lady that asked, sorry again! :\ ] so we meet up with some guy from Interscope and the meet and greet people [some of which won some contest in Memphis and were REALLY drunk and being annoying] so Katie and Interscope dude tried to escort everyone into the venue, and this crazy power tripping lady wouldn't let any of us go through. Katie's like uhm..I have escorting privileges..and the lady wouldn't let any of us in. so she hands me a working pass so I can come in and bring Kelly, but the stupid crazy lady let me in but not kelly..and she was just being impossible.....

so we all shuffled outside, and then found our way in through the back. blah blah...meet and greet. Interscope dude gives both me and Kelly 8x10s and we're like uhh...thanks. haha. so we talked to another person from Paparoach.com that recognized me. haha so the guys come in and coby's all HEYYYYY. and then said Happy birthday fucka! to Kelly. Tony sees us and he's all 'oh shit!' and I'm like wtf, thanks tony hahaha. it was funny. Coby's like, did you get your passes? and I'm all no, not yet, and he points at the working pass I had on and he's like what? it's right there! I laughed. so everyone meets em and stuff, and Tobin's making faces at me, and it's weird, cuz well..he never remembers me. ever. lol..I just get a look like..hmm..why do I recognize that person? so I've got this 8x10 and I'm like wtf..what do I do with this...and Jacoby's all oh just gimme that. and he signs it and passes it down. he did his "whuddup Busta!" like he always does. I showed him my tattoo and he didn't seem to think it was as cool as I thought he would hahah. Tony was like what did you get?? and I showed him and he was like hmmph. cuz I don't think he gets that's my nickname. ionno haha. so then we talked a little about Kelly's birthday and somehow it came up that we were married or whatever..I think we said we were spending our anniversary going to see them or something. and I guess Tony didn't know we were married..cuz later after the show he asked "so how long have you been married? since NAMM?" and I'm like '5 years' and he's like 'oh..pff. really? well you never mentioned it before' and I'm thinking like, why would I have just randomly mentioned that. lol so anyways..Coby went to make some inappropriate joke about our 28 tattoos [ohoh..that's how it came up...we said that Kelly's 4 months to the day older than Jacoby, then we started saying stuff about 28, and yeah] and then he decided not to say it. haha I kinda wanna know what he was gonna say. but it's probably better that he didn't hahaha. so then Jerry chimes in and is like so how many of these have we signed for you now? and I'm like that's the only one!! I swear. and he's like I know I'm just kidding. :P so they get up to go take pix and before they go over we get our hello hugs from Jacoby and Tony's like HEY so I turn around and he's all *hug* and he apologized for saying oh shit when he saw us x] so while they take pictures with the meet and greet peoples, we kinda started talking to Jerry's wife Jessica, complete with daughter Amelia on her back. so then after pictures Tobin comes over and is like hey, happy birthday man and gives Kelly a hug. then we started talking about..something..and it was like Tobin talks to us every time we see them and he's known us forever [weiiirdddd. haha]

doo de doo de doo...we go back upstairs and outside..back to will call to grab our tickets. then of course, the passes still aren't there..though I had one..blah blah..people are finally getting all inside, and then katie comes back and gives us an after show for kelly and re-gives me her number since I saved it before when I was on prepay, so it didn't save to my account. pff. she says, text me afterwards to meet up so she can take us down. so we go in and walk around and look for Ray. they got more of the Come To Papa shirts which made me sad cuz that's the shirt I wanted to get in Cinci back when I had money to get a shirt, and they didn't have any..and we didn't have shirt money this time around.

we walk around the venue a bunch and go in while Burn Halo is on or whatever. went to Jerry's side..and somehow found seats right in like the 6th row on the side. burn halo was boring..as I expected. not my kinda music. then Papa Roach comes on wee. everyone was standing in the isle, so I asked a dude if we could stand right up in the front in the isle, and he said I dunno, just do it till we find out otherwise..so we do. Jerry's guitar kept going out for like 3 songs. it was no good. the crowd was kinda meh. Coby tried. Tony made a funny face when he dropped his stick...atleast it didn't bounce back this time and whack him in the head like last time. haha. [I can't for the life of me remember what song that's during. but oh well] got yelled at for being in the isle, but we just squished ourselves into the first row. ha. we actually watched Last Resort all the way through..very rarely do we see them end their set. hahah.

so then we went out and walked around the venue seeing if Ray was out there. he found us actually and we talked about Butch for a little [since he missed ittttt. boo haha] and I got to show him my pick necklace he told me to make lol. Kelly saw a girl he'd played a few shows with a few years ago in California..random. AND a dude that we'd talked to a bunch at Poison last summer [dude used to work for them] pretty insane that we're in a city neither of us have ever been to, and like 3 people recognized me [which ended up being 4 cuz I found out later someone else from pr.com saw me] and 2 people kelly knew...so weird! then we just sat down on the floor for a while after walking around a bunch. we saw Katie a little later and she said the passes were for after the whole show, so to text her after A7x is done [ughhh] so we're like hmm..maybe we can go outside and get some food and come back in since I had a working pass, and the same bitch lady from earlier was like NO PASSES GO IN AN OUT THESE DOORS. and she sucked. so we had to stay. we found our way wayyy up to the top of the arena in the last row and I was like meh..I'd rather watch crappy bands than sit around doing nothing. so we watched buckcherry and their lackluster performance. because we were so far back, we could see them set up A7x's stage and it took foreverrrrrrrrs. their big Marshall stacks were just the fronts of the speakers like bolted together like a wall...but because they put them back so far on the stage, you can't tell that they're not real speakers. I guess having big stacks of amps makes you more metal or something? so they FINALLY go on, and the screaming is deafening..we were like WHOA. so they start playing and I'm like wtf, their singer looks like eminem or something? so then I make fun of them, and I'm just staring at the audience and I'm just baffled. I'm pretty sure my brain melted. I must be missing something, because I just do not get that band at all...and these people were so rabid and insane for them, I'm obv not getting it. then I noticed they had cool screens, so we decided to move so we could see the stage from the front. their screens were really awesome. kinda distracting, but awesome. so we're still going WTF?? and laughing at everything they were doing [I'm pretty convinced that Johnny Christ kid was forced to learn to play lefty, so he and Synyster could lean into each other when they play that dueling crap] then all of a sudden, they play some song with steel guitar??? we were like WHAT?! ooo_OOO????? it was very odd. I think at that time, my melted brain poured out my ears. they played a long time. it was awful and amazing at the same time. I felt like I was watching a cult whilst being on another planet. so they finally finish and we're just like ......wow.

went back outside into the hall and tried to find Katie. people started yelling and cheering like idiots as they were all leaving. we were like the last people in the building, but the venue people didn't care because they thought I was working. haha. Katie's phone stopped working cuz she was in the elevator, then I guess she got lost and got locked into a stairwell! and then finally got out to us. haha. we went back downstairs and she told us this story about losing her phone, jacket, debit card, cash, and a giftcard, and then getting them all back and all the money and stuff was still there. amazing.

so blah blah...we're down where everyone's at [Jerry had left already with Jessica and Amelia, so it was good we'd gotten to talk to him earlier, and the day before]..we went into the greenroom sort of place to see what was going on and who was around and Tony is talking to some girl and right as we walk hin he's like oh man I'M LEAVING..and I'm like JEEZE Tony! you must hate us! hahaha. first it's oh shit, then it's man I'm leaving! he laughed. he told kelly to go make himself a birthday shot. [which he didn't do haha. we don't drink..kelly got over that in college hahaha] we talked to tony a lot last night. :] about everything...the record, the video with his son crying online [of which he found creepy and didn't really know about] how I think he's a really cool drummer and a good luck charm for the band, the website and promo/sales..jeeze what else..oh, being married for 5 years, and the fact that we're going out to see them in Virginia [with Madina Lake eee] and Washington DC for our anniversary. hahaha. he called us crazy. the drummer from Buckcherry is a chatty man. he was talking about all sorts of random things, but he was funny and nice so whatever. some girl he knew said she liked my hair color and tony's like 'it's faded isn't it?' and I'm like pff thanks. but yes. hahaha blah blah talked about everything..saw Litface again, and his brother. kelly said something to him about the Butch show. hahaha. Talked to Jacoby about the record, raining sparkles during March Out..boy did his face light up when I said that, then he started talking about Jerry playing with a fan blowing his hair. so funny...talked about Butch, his opinion on Potatoes for Christmas hahahaha [in conjunction with South Gang], going to see them in May/Madina Lake, etc etc. Bob was wearing a cowboy hat..I knew someone in that gang woulda. Saw Ray being important a few times. we talked to Tobin a bit again..still weird but awesome. haha. he said something about seeing me every day, and I thought he meant like, since we see them all the time..but he meant seeing my face on the website. hahah he put up his hands like the edge of a picture and turned his head like my profile picture. I was like I can change it! I'll change it to a picture of you! and he's all noo I like it! it's nice talking to him. :] he gave us hugs and said happy birthday to kelly again. we said bye to Tony too, he kept saying 'do you guys really have to head back tonight? you can't stay?' I think he wanted us to go out to the bar with them or something..which woulda been cool..but both of us had to work today and Kelly had to work at 7am. we said bye to coby and he did some random hifive to inappropriate gesture thing [of course] katie came by perfect timing for hugs and saying bye and to direct us out of the building. so then we drove home...we both were like, asleep the whole time going home. we got home at 6:50am [real helpful when kelly worked at 7. poor thing] stupid losing an hour too, going back into eastern time.

but yeah! that's my story! super long..but I retain details like hell..and then forget them, so I like to write them down so I can remember forever. it was so much fun..the whole weekend, but esp PR. I think from now on Tobin'll remember me just fine. haha. I cannot wait till May 15th...and 16th. bus ride, Rachel, PR headlining, ML..states I've never been to, washington dc, ahh..so fun. I can't wait. :]]]


ohohoh..and to top everything off. we got home today and guess what was in the mailbox waiting for me?? MY INSURANCE CLAIM CHECK FROM THE POST OFFICE FOR MY LOST PHONE!! jeeeeezuh..finally. you guys only lost it on Jan 10, it's now March 31st! pffff anyways..hopefully I'll finally get my sk08 tomorrow! now I must sleep! I'm so far behind on the PR forums since I haven't been on in dayyys. ugh. I'm gonna spend most of tomorrow catching up on that. lol

so I got the last copy of Metamorphosis at Best Buy. and I get home, and the cd has a little dent in the hole...so it doesn't spin right, and my whole cd is fucked up. x]

that WOULD happen to me. pff.

so now I have to go exchange it tomorrow before work. grrr. I want to listen to it :[


[[EDIT::]] I'm pretty sure the band is going to laugh at me when I tell them this weekend. hahaha jerks.

so Rachel sent me her tapers and plugs so I can stretch my ears. [she's a few sizes ahead of me.]

honestly, I have no idea why I'm stretching my ears xD well..I do..but I've always been like nahhh. just never really wanted to I guess. when I was younger, I remember sitting in my kitchen just working 14s into my normal sized holes, and it sucked! [no tapers] I did that twice [4 holes tho] and it wasn't fun..I was fine with the 14s cuz I was weird in hs and would put random belly button rings and stuff in my ears lol. but I guess the combination of rachel doing it and seeing my manager at work with stretched ears [she's cute and little like me, so I figure they'd look similar on me] and so yeah..here I go! haha

so anyways..got the box today with the earrings..yay. so I clean up the 12s and get ready to put them in and I look at them and think...ehh..these don't look much bigger than the ones I have in now..so I tried to stick the plug in and it went right in haha..so I was like mmkay...that's not gonna do anything. so I cleaned up the 10s and put those in. hurt a little more than I expected, but it wasn't bad. getting my nose pierced hurt like 9347395x more. I kinda went about it the way I take insulin shots that end up hurting..I go really slow and that hurts, and then I just go AHHHHH in my head and just push it in..hahaha. it worked for this too. :D so yeah..now I've got the 10s in yay. now they just feel like itchy tingle. :]

I figure if I'm able to stretch every week or two..I should be done and up to a 4g in about a month or so. I think this one is the worst time too because, well, it's basically the first time I've stretched my ears and because I kinda went up two sizes, even though my ears were practically at 12s anyways I guess. so the next three should be easier yayyy.


ohohoh...and I'm pretty sure I'm getting my Busta tattoo tomorrow :D [on the top of my wrist woo]

so we're eating at Burger King, and two boys and a pregnant girl come in and eat. Kelly says to me, see that girl, she's pregnant, and I'm like I gathered that, and he says well she works at Kroger and she's always buying cigarettes. and I'm like wow..that's fucked up.

so as we're leaving, her and her two boyfriends [who she probably doesn't know which is the father xD ] are sitting in a pickup truck all three lighting up cigarettes. so we start pulling out, and the boy in the passenger side opens his window and I yell "STOP KILLING YOUR BABY!" and it actually kinda looked like that hurt the girl's feelings a little bit. she wouldn't look at me the rest of the way as we pulled out and they went the other way.

then, we were stopped at a stoplight, and they were in the turn lane, and they come up on the side and went past us really slow, and the boy [who I'm guessing is the boyfriend/father] in the passenger seat looks at me and smiles like he's PROUD of himself and his girlfriend killing their child and then they sped up and turned.

Well my friend, GOOD FOR YOU. I'm glad you're proud of yourself for killing a baby. I wish I could be as cool as you, and I wish there were more people like you in the world...like maybe your mother. too bad she wasn't the one smoking while she was pregnant, and you died or had something wrong with you so you couldn't procreate and ruin someone else's poor innocent life.


[[EDIT::]] so I just got a text saying that she's working right now, and apparently she works in the PHARMACY!! wtf??? cuz that's not completely and horribly ironic. and I guess the dumb boys she was with were getting gas and blasting music, and some lady yelled at them. what retards.

so I'm gonna start stretching my ears probably next week..whenever I get Rachel's old tapers and plugs. I'm kinda scared and I dunno why. lol. I'm going up to 4g. Rachel is at 4 now and I'd say they look like a good size for me. kinda big but not too big. between Rachel doing her's and seeing Krisi [my manager at work] with plugs..I'm starting to want mine done too lol. damn peer pressure :P I'm just wondering what it's gonna feel like doing it. lol...when I was younger..I remember sitting in my kitchen for hours just working 14s into my 18g holes..and it was not fun. that was also going up two sizes at once without tapers. so if it feels anything like that or less, then I'll be fine! hahaha. I'm just being weird I guess. ha. I'm still gonna be like eeep tho.

anyone know about how long it should take to go from 14 to 4? when I'm at 4s, I want to get theseeee and thesseeee. I kinda wanna buy those swirly ones now as incentive to keep me going x] of course, those are the ones at hottopic and not at spencers, which is where I get discount. gay :P

if a picture says a thousand words, this one says 1001. Everyone's personality is completely shining in this picture..it's definitely my new favorite picture lol



okay..so....Jacoby was like COME TAKE A PIC WITH US...and we're just like uhh...that's okay. and Coby goes BUT ITS A CHANCE OF A LIFETIME!! and I'm all..I don't have a camera anyways...but then some radio station dude took it and gave me his card...here's a little explanation of this crazy photo..

Tony is definitely raping Kelly
"That must have hurt, he's pretty hung" says Jacoby.
"Well, he is Italian" says Kelly.

I dunno wtf Coby is doing..

Tobin's just being Tobin..

I'm laughing at the fact that Tony Kelly and Coby were laughing and jumping all over each other...

but me and Jerry are just both like, why are we taking pictures together...?



last night the show was quite interesting. the crowd sucked, and I could tell they were trying extra hard to get the crowd pumped up..I enjoyed the show because they were being goofy, and doing all sorts of extra things. Tony threw his stick up and didn't catch it right so it bounced up and hit him in the head and he laughed a bunch. tobin wiggled his butt, spun his bass over his back, and was turning in circles a bunch. Jerry was jumping and bending backwards a lot..and coby was spitting and spraying water everywhere. it was neat. they threw in all sorts of extra beats and guitar/bass stuff...I thought it was cool. lol

ohoh..and I was able to give them a copy of my drawing, and they liked it a bunch :D it was a good night.

http://luckypineapple.deviantart.com/art/Papa-Roach-portrait-113955113
[go there to see a better pic of it]

I drew that this weekend. lol. took about 10 hours I think..I'm retardedly proud of it!! :]
I made a copy of it at kinkos and framed it and gave it to the band tonight. Tobin really loved it..Jacoby said he looks like a child porn star [whatever that is! lol] I dunno which one of them will keep it or if it'll go on the bus for a while or what, but they seemed to like it a lot :D Jacoby was all 'Busta's got tal....ent.....' his words trailed off cuz he started to really look at it. hahaha. and tony was like wow! you should draw all my pictures!
Tony is my favorite one in the drawing. he turned out the best I think.

Soo Papa Roach was last night...Hoobastank was tonight. now all I need is an *NSYNC show tomorrow and I'll have seen all of my favorite bands right in a row. loll

Papa Roach, there's not a whole lot to tell. got to the show and saw the HUGE line..it was retarded. we went inside to will call and naturally there was nothing there waiting for us...we went back by the buses to find Jacoby or Tony or Jerry or Ray or someone! [not Tobin, he always forgets me xD ] didn't really see anyone..but if we did, it wouldn't have mattered anyways..they had the buses roped off like miles away practically...so even yelling wouldn't have worked because it was so far away and all the buses were pretty loud. soo..I went back to will call to check while kelly waited by the buses...still nothing....blah blah blah...Jacoby pretty much forgot. haha..goofy. anyways, it got all figured out. we stood around inside a bit trying to figure out if we can sneak into the line without going outside and waiting...but nope. had to wait in the line, and we're like oh great, I'm never gonna get anywhere near the stage.

blah blah..after finally getting all inside and crap...kelly hung out kinda near the soundboard..he ended up seeing Jerry's parents, wife and daughter..they watched the show from the soundboard. I went up to try to get closer while Saving Abel was on..I got pretty close and just hung out about ehhh...15-20 people away from the stage and I was like meh..this'll be fine. they started up and everyone started shifting, and without even trying, just moving where my feet would land after being pushed all over the place, I ended up with my hand on the rail and one girl in front of me..it was fantastic. lol. stayed there, rocked out, had fun. this bitch behind me pretty much was having lesbian sex with me and I was not okay with it. she was really drunk and really pushy and every time me and the girl next to me and in front of me got her off of us, she would just start dancing and humping me and I'm like WTF but whatever..I couldn't move so I just dealt with it...it was better than some nasty sweaty fat guy rubbing his armpits on my face. so whatever. Coby saw me and did his cheesy point at me. [ala this] blah blah..rocking out. they started playing Hollywood Whore and everyone got really loud and cheering and I was like whoa? and Jacoby looks up like o_O 'OHH, so ya know this one!' he says..he was honestly surprised by it I think. ha...I guess Ft Wayne must play the crap outta the song ? ionno. anyways...I got pulled out when Last Resort started..found Kelly and we went to check if Ray was doing merch and he wasn't..so we went outside and stood in the cold for a while...got REALLY cold..saw everyone going back and fourth in and out..and well...same issues as before, AND it was dark out..so they couldn't see me waving or anything..so we left.

stopped at ihop, and some girl that was waiting for the bathroom was like 'were you just at the concert?' I said yes and she was like 'were you pissed??' and I'm all 'uhm...no..? why?' 'cuz A7x bailed.' now I'm thinking omg that's the funniest thing ever..and I'm all 'really?? no..I don't like that band..but wtf happened?' and she was all ionno someone got sick or something. so anyways..found out later that the ambulance I saw by the buses was for some dude in the band..I guess he had some sort food poisoning or something. I dunno. who cares. that band is gay. haha.

I'm irritated by the like 8 different threads about the show on pr.com. I wish I could merge them all. and I'll be seeing them again monday...that'll be #19. haha. I'm getting a tshirt too woot.



so today..woke up and heard a knock at the door, opened it and saw a box yay..I got my christmas present from ashley and in the mail I got the random signed Papa Roach booklet that I randomly won from machineshop marketing. lol I don't even remember entering for it, but hey! I'll take it. I opened it and I was all "OH! I'M OFFENDED! Dave signed this!" lol..spent the rest of the morning looking for Jesse from Hoobastank to email me back..after he'd said there shouldn't be a problem with guestlist..ran some errands, ate some food..no email. I felt too trusting, and somehow convinced Kelly to start on down to the show [2 hours away in Louisville] we'd just go to the mall or something down there if it fell through...the compromise was that we'd never go to a show unless it was a definite thing again...blah blah..driving...finally get an email from Jesse saying it's a go! woohoo!

we get to the place and park like, right next to the buses. it's in the same place that Six Flags and the Kentucky Derby is at..we go in and they just eyeball us and peer into my bag..no frisking or anything?? wtf? then we go into the dump and there's like a random outdoor hallway that went into a random room that had will call. got the tickets no problem. [amazing!] we go in..and they ask to check my bag again, and I'm like wtf? they already did that, but whatever. we go inside and theres like...nothing. it's retarded. we see the merch and the hoobastank things are neato..but no 50$ for a hoodie..saving money for a PR shirt on monday. we go into the hugeeeeely long arena made of concrete and it's retarded. theres no one in there, the place is a dump...our seats were great! lol. first band comes on and we decide to move up cuz no one was there. went and got a drink and then just stood near the stage kinda and no one cared, so I'm like yep..definitely going to stand in the corner right next to the 'floor' area...I figured I'd just go back to my seat if they yell at me. yep..no one cared. by the time Hoobastank was done, there were quite a few people behind us lol.

anyways, Hoobastank comes on..I really liked that they opened with Born to Lead. I'm pretty sure I was the only person having fun. there were like maybe 3 people that Doug was kinda watching the whole time, so I think they were the only other ones. no one in the place [which was a very small number of people] was even tapping their foot or nodding their heads...it was really sad. I kept wanting to like, cry for them. haha. Dan saw me almost right away and smiled real big! that was awesome. kelly's like I think he remembers you from NAMM. and I was like yayness. Jesse ended up seeing me shortly there after from the other side of the stage..more likely than not because I actually had my hands up and I was singing and jumping along. Dan was trying especially hard to keep his energy up..the poor guy...he kept looking over at me and seeing me singing and having fun kinda kept him going. he'd get a smirk every time and then would play a little harder. I felt really bad. lol. They played well...I had fun..too bad no one else did..not even during The Reason. I couldn't believe it. a few people got into Crawling in the Dark so that was better I guess. Doug gave those three people in the front picks, and at the end, Dan came up and gave some picks out, and specifically threw 3 of them to me, and I got none of them..which sucked a lot a lot. :[ oh well. he totally threw 3 to make sure I'd get one too, sucks. he coulda easily ran over and gave me one, not like he'd be mobbed or anything. lol whatever..he's Dan so it's okay. haha.

so we went outside..waited a little bit..waved at the big headed drummer of Seether, I don't think he remembered talking to us at NAMM but whatever..I kinda felt stupid after, waving to a guy in a band that was about to play, after we'd clearly left, but whatever. lol. I don't care. haha. blah blah waiting. they open up the stage doors and some dudes bring out the big light up ∞ [lol] and put it on the ground. and kelly's like "What if the guys come out and they see that and are like 'Why is our logo laying on the ground??!'" I laughed so hard. x] Doug comes out a little later and we're like DOUG! and he's like I'll brb! Chris came out with his doggy Zoe and she's so pretty..just sniffing around and stuff. Kelly noticed she had a laminate around her neck which is the most badass thing EVER!! ha. we didn't talk to him, but Doug came right back then. talked to him a little bit about stuff. he's really short. haha. even tho we just saw them play to like 1100 people in an empty arena for like 40 minutes [and that I've met him before], he's still like a big star to me. Hoobastank was my favorite band from about 2000 till 2005..so its still a big deal to see them and talk to them. :] we waited a little longer after Doug and Chris went off to the hotel...hoping esp for Jesse to come out, or Dan. Jesse came out for a cigarette and we talked to him a while. he's super nice. he talked about my myspace page xD which was, you know, completely weird...having a semi stranger, in one of your favorite bands talk about things on your myspace and knowing weird specific things like how many pictures I have with famous people xD talked a bit about where we lived, and that we didn't live in LA even tho that's where he met us haha. and about the next tour and how he was hoping he didn't email me back too late. lol he was really great. building a relationship with him is woohoo! told me to keep in touch and to email him for the next show. he's super cool..I hope he sticks around in the band, they've been having lots of bass player issues ever since Markku left.

so anyways..that was my monday and tuesday. I'd kinda like to go see Jesse McCartney [lol more jesse's!] on sunday, but not looking like it's gonna happen...but maybe. Papa Roach is monday.

nothing cool really for about a month then...new Corbin album march 10..then the fun starts up again..Metamorphosis out on the 24th...going to Nashville on the 27th, to see Butch Walker and then spend the weekend there for Kelly's birthday on the 28th..then Papa Roach again on the 30th. hoping to hear some new songs that day since it'll be a few days after the record is out. woohoo!

pff...what kind of album leaks 6 weeks before the release??
Papa Roach. That's who.
Good for my ears, bad for the band themselves.
I feel really bad and I still can't believe it..

Everyone was astonished that Britney's Circus leaked 3 weeks early...but 6 weeks?! Today is the day that the Lifeline single goes to Hottopic....but someone must have gotten the whole album today too.

I wonder if they'll push back the album like NLT did, to put out new songs...or if they'll push up the release so people will actually buy it before they download it.

I feel so bad for them...this is bad news...they always have such a hell of a time every album, to rebuild a fanbase...it's like they're a new band every few years..the poor things. this is probably fairly upsetting to them...because now the lowish number that they were gonna probably debut at is going down now. :(

Sorry guys <3

Madina Lake
Never Take Us Alive
http://www.megaupload.com/?d=Y02M2AKM
SOO good.

you're welcome.




ps. Here's what's said to be the Metamorphosis cover.




I really like how I've been getting PR ML and Hoobastank stuff on the same days all the time. no new Hoobastank stuff tho today..but still.

[this is kinda worded weird cuz I took it from an IM cuz I didn't feel like rewriting it lol]

kay so, for those of you that don't know, my 4 month old sidekick was sitting on my desk and committed suicide right after christmas... so I wait a few weeks till we can go up to the tmobile store to make them give me a new one.. but they're like oh we can't..call this number and I'm like ugh..I wish I knew that before cuz I woulda done it the next day.. so after that all happens, I send my phone off the afternoon of the 9th...and at like 130am on the 10th is the last time the tracking thing was updated I called tmobile and they didn't get it...like..if they forgot to update the status thing..

so now that it's been 21 days, I filed my insurance claim [THANK GOD I got the insurance...it cost me over $4 and it was gay but so good lol] and so...they owe me 300$ and I'm kinda happy now because my phone is down to 100$ and now I get to get a new one, instead of a refurbished one... AND now I'll have two batteries because they told me to keep the battery from the old one

so it's pretty much sucked, but luckily I have my old sidekick that I've been using, but I'm kinda excited now lol
so yeah an extra 200$ is nice esp because I got ripped the hell off when I bought that phone... it shoulda only been 150, but we had to pay 300 because my credit. so now I ultimately get it for even less than it shoulda been :D

Dear Jonas Brothers,

If you're anything like how you were in my dream last night, you're really cool dudes. Too bad I doubt you're much like that..otherwise I'd want to hang out.
And dammit Jacoby, you should always share your decongestant with me you jerk. Andand I know I watch Drake and Josh too much when I start playing street hockey with one of the kids in Megan's class on the show. ha

Boy, dreams are weird.

Papa Roach
Lifeline
HQ Album Version
http://www.megaupload.com/?d=FU6AKEWE
It's def the album version because
it's got the intro to the next song on it.
I believe it's gonna be track 5 :]
You don't have to thank me.